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drive yourself home. it will never be the cure because it cannot be cured by an external force. it is what can be clearly revealed to you when you squeeze that one person out of the picture for a minute. what is present in your life, with you, without that? it is why we so romantically say you take me out of myself because we start thinking of ourselves completely consisting of the instances of being with that person or thinking about that person. so, what you have after squeezing that person out of your life is what’s actually yours. the more you keep your focus there, the easier life flows. the easier your mind can be.

so, it is what you already have. what do you already have? a life you are building step by step, that is in the process of being formed. a pure excitement that is yours. a profession you are trying to master. a book you’re in the middle of reading. the songs you’ve been playing on repeat recently. something to look forward to. a friend that always calls. something you are ready to try. thoughts to write about. conversations to write about. your birthday. new plans. new decisions. new steps to take with that new attitude. only you to persuade.

a room of your own is what you have. oh, and it was regarded as prosperous, it was deemed precious back in the day, “A woman must have money and a room of her own if she is to write fiction.” says Virginia Woolf. what you always have is the freedom to shape and reform yourself over and over again. reinvent your approach, restyle your image, explore your mind further, make yourself happy over and over again. what you have is the freedom to be creative.

use that irresistible force to dive inwards. to meet yourself there again. because the cure cannot come from an external force. the key you attach from the outside does not match the lock inside. it is one more lock away. then he can try. but first, unravel yourself to you. find the key inside, really. busy yourself with that for a while now. drive yourself home.